| Oh, instincts are misleading. You shouldn't think what you're feeling |
[Mar. 20th, 2006|04:38 pm] |
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| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | Currently Lip Synching |
| | Black Black Heart | ] |
I don't care if you hurt me some more
I don't care if you even the score
You can knock me, I don't care
You can mock me, I don't care
You can rock me just about anywhere
It's alright 'cus you're all I've got tonight
You're all I've got tonight
You're all I've got tonight
I need you tonight
I don't care if you use me again
I don't care if you abuse me again
You can make me, I don't care
You can bump me, I don't care
You can love me just about anywhere
It's alright
You're All I've Got Tonight *The Smashing Pumpkins*
Today is the final day.
I'm getting real sick of myself, right not I certainly am not my biggest fan.
All I ever hear is "Love yourself before you can love anybody else." Well that's dandy but how am I supposed to 'love myself' when it seems impossible for anyone else to?
So forget this. This is the last time I allow myself to get hurt. I'll go back to how I used to be and who the fuck will care? Nobody.
Nothing makes me more uncomfortable than when people try to tell me how pretty I am.
Or how my family will go on and on about 'how I must have so many boys chasing after me'.
No, its the opposite dear family. A helpful slice of knowledge from me to you.
It's a gift so take it and don't say anything like that again.
Yeah, I do hate these ridiculously played out emo entries in livejournals and xangas and whatever the fucks.
But oh fucking well. Deal with it, nobody reads this anyway! So I'm going to pour my damn heart out!
All I do now is listening to shitty sad songs by lame emo bands.
Armor For Sleep
Acceptance
Butch Walker
Taproot
Pillar
^to name a few.
I don't even know anymore. Sometimes I just want to start all over again.
Just get out of this shithole of a life. New place. New school. New people. New Alex.
Maybe that's all I need... Who knows?
At least I'm not fucked up or anything. I'm not saying that I'm a walk in the park, trust me there's emotional baggage hanging out in my head, but I could be worse.
I don't cut.
I don't puke up my food.
I don't bang my wrists.
I don't burn myself.
I don't sleep around.
I don't beat the shit out people.
I <3 Low Self Esteem.
He was supposed to be different.
But weren't they all supposed to be?
st*rfish |
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| Dude, I just took a SHIT LOAD of pics |
[Mar. 14th, 2006|05:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  flirty | ] |
| [ | Currently Lip Synching |
| | A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me - FOB | ] |
wow, this is fun. i just resized like 60 fucking pitctures.
yes im so vain that i spend all my time taking pictures of myself making the same face and wearing a lot of make up.
*and i dont know how to spell the correct form of vain* nvm.
hmm... nothing is really happening at all except i now have a fun crush on Pete Wentz. oh well, it happens to the best of us. it was inevitable. all i did was look at the fucking pictures of him for like 3 days. ::sigh:: at least its not as bad as it was with jimmy fallon. that was hella pathetic.
well if u wanna see the new pictures, go to my myspace cuz im too lazy to find the gay code to post them here.
<3alexxxx |
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| HI! |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|04:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | Currently Lip Synching |
| | Straight To Video - Mindless Self Indulgence | ] |
Hello everyone! This is my first entry in my new journal!
I'll just say that my name is Alex and if you want to know the interests and what not, look in my profile ;)
And if you want to see pictures of me, go to my myspace: http://www.myspace.com/fatexisxwhatxivexgainedx
<3alexxx |
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